Selfies Are HARD, Y’all

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Boudoir selfie or professional photographer? Gah … I can shoot my clients, but taking my own photos, even with a professional camera and the knowledge I have is really fucking HARD. After yesterday I think I’m gonna do some searching and find a local photographer to do mine.

My job – my passion – is taking photos that allow women to look at themselves and love what they see, whether they’re taking the photos for someone they love or for themselves. Taking selfies is an exercise in PAIN… I am not kidding, my back is killing me from trying pose and hit the shutter at the same time. I warn my clients all the time that they’re gonna be sore and it’s true!

I’ll tell you what HAS happened since I started taking my own photos: I am accepting myself and my body. People, I am nearly 60 YEARS OLD!!!! That fact slaps me in the face on a regular basis and you know what? SO WHAT?

I’m becoming more confident in this mom-bod and my lived in face. Sometimes I see my own mom in my face. Sometimes I see my face in my daughter. This is me and if I don’t get good with what I have now, at the age of 57, when will I?

I’ve lost some weight recently, not on purpose, but I still have the wrinkles and the cellulite and that damn belly roll in the front and I’m okay with it. I really think a lot of it has to do with boudoir photography. I see my clients come in and toss off their clothes, trust me to make them look good and I KNOW I’m good too!

So yesterday I curled my hair with a flat iron because it was too freaking cold to go out to the studio more than once, watched a make-up video on YouTube, threw all my gear into a bag and went out to the studio.

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Random Evening Thoughts

New Orleans Skyline

Whenever I’m having a crisis of belief in myself (and trust me, that happens a lot), I go back and read through Sue Bryce​’s blog.

I discovered Sue about 3-4 years ago, right about the time everybody else did. She burst into the glam/boudoir photography world with a BANG, a goddamn black-eyed phenomenon from “Down Under” with the cutest accent, who became an over night success in the United States.

Sue Bryce - My Hero

Of course she’d been working her ass off for twenty years in Australia … so much for overnight successes.

But if I ever had a hero, and idol, she’s it and she’s what keeps me going when I want to quit. I got back and start going through some of her earliest blog entries, before she moved to the states and I find myself being inspired again.

While I love her style, I know I’ll never produce the kind of work she does – and truthfully I don’t want to. I don’t want to “Brycify” my work. That’s HER, it’s not ME. But her drive, her gumption, her force of will – that’s what keeps me going.

Things are tough right now, I’m not gonna lie; anyone who knows me knows I don’t sugar-coat a lot. I make a lot of jokes, but the truth is always there just under the surface.

I’m going into my fourth year of business and I’m finally seeing a change – in myself, in my work, in how potential clients see me. It’s encouraging, but of course, it’s not happening fast enough. I want it all right now. Because we never know what tomorrow is going to bring.

But I feel it there, I feel like this year is gonna be my year. It’s right there and I can touch it.

I haven’t done much since returning from New Orleans – I hadn’t realized how much I missed it and I was in a slump when I got back.

New Orleans Skyline

Then there was Christmas and it was wonderful.

I’ve been studying marketing and thinking of different things that I can offer as a boudoir/glamour photographer in the Green Bay area … something to make me stand out and get women interested in having their portrait taken. I’ve got some great ideas.

I was watching one of the entertainment shows and they had interviewed Debbie Reynolds back in the ’90’s, asking how she kept going. I’m paraphrasing here, but she said, “I just got up and kept going. I wanted to lay down and hide and sometimes I did for a day or two, but then I got up and kept going.”

Thanks, MsReynolds

Kinda rambling, I told you, lol.

New Year – OLD Me

New Year – OLD Me

Since I can’t show you my first session in the new studio (shhh … it’s a a surprise!) or the NEXT two either :(, I figured I’d show you the studio a different way.

But first, I want you to watch this video by Sue Bryce; as many of you know, Sue is my hero and while I didn’t GET the idea to shoot women from her, she has been my driving force for three years.

Yeah, so I am 55 years old, married over 30 years and two grown children. I am thirty pounds overweight, I’ve smoked since I was twelve and I use to party like a rock star. Sometimes BETTER than a rock star. I have Fibromyalgia, COPD and a plethora of other STUPID health issues that make it difficult for me to get my ass moving in the morning – who the hell ever heard of a rib randomly popping out of your spine?

And LOOK, Zippy, I’m STILL hot, goddammit (that’s an inside joke; those of you who get it, get it, those of you who don’t – sorry)

So that’s what the title of this blog refers to – it may be 2016, but I’m still me.

I did very little afterwork on these images – brightened my eyes, removed blemishes that won’t be there next week and maybe the lightest of making some bits smaller. I just made sure I posed in a way that I looked my best. If I can look this good I can make you look this good, with very little computer help.

Looking at these photos reminds me of who I am. Who I REALLY am and I love me.

Let me make you fall back in love with yourself.

Sleigh Bells Ring … Are You Listening

Sleigh Bells Ring … Are You Listening
Lighting Model Beaner, my lighting stand-in

As much as I know it’s necessary, and even though I’ll still be taking photos, it’s breaking my heart to shut down my studio.

As I was setting up for today’s sessions and really feeling the effort, I realized it was for the best, but I was crying anyway … I’ve loved every session I’ve done there. I love how BigD worked so hard to give me the exact space I wanted and even built my “movable” walls, even though he thought I was crazy.

I love those of you who volunteered your time when I needed models and I really love those of you who spent your hard-earned cash and put your beautiful faces in front of my camera, sometimes more than once. Knowing that you have my work hanging on your walls does more for me than you’ll ever know.

Happy Holidays, Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays, Happy Holidays

Happy Holidays from SassyBee Glamour Photography

Turns out December has been a very … trying month. I was having some health issues and putting them off because I’m a pussy, but when I was finally dragged kicking and screaming to the doc’s office, some of my fears were put to rest. The news was not as good as I’d hoped for, but better than what I’d been expecting.

I kinda went off the deep end; in the past that would have meant a week long date with Jim Beam, but those days are past me and I’ve just been trying to work my head around what my life is gonna be like from now on. I’m still having a hard time with it and I expect I will continue to have a hard time, but – and ain’t that always how it goes – some good has come out of the crud.

First, I’ve decided to close down the studio – a little less stress in my life is not a bad thing. All future work will be done on location.

Second, I realized that I had a LOT of time on my hands this past few weeks, which led me to decide that I was going to do some REAL holiday decorating for the first time in years. Christmas is a tough time for me anyway and the past three years has sucked a lot more of the joy out of the holiday so I’ve done hardly any decorating at all. It’s been kind of a piss poor tribute to my mother’s favorite holiday and pretty rotten for my family.

I’ve also been doing some long overdue de-hoarding. Laws. I had a lot of junk. I have a lot less now. I wish losing weight was as easy as getting rid of junk.

Third, I’ve decided that I am NOT giving up my goal of spending the rest of my life making other women’s lives just a little but better.

I know I can’t make you love your body or see that you’re beautiful, but I CAN show you what the rest of the world sees and give you a lasting memento that will give your self-esteem a kick in the ass every time you look at it. What starts out as a gift for a loved one (whether it’s boudoir or glamour) will turn into lasting reminder that you really ARE kick-ass hot.

And that I WILL promise you.

Passion Party Cancelled

Passion Party Cancelled

SassyBee Glamour PhotographyI am sad to say that this week’s FINAL Boudoir Marathon has been cancelled.

This would be a good time to let you all know that SBG/MBP will be closing it’s doors on December 31, 2015.  It’s been a lovely (nearly) three years and I’ve loved working with every last one of you.

I can’t say now what I’ll be doing in the coming year, because I don’t know. I like to hope that photography will be a part of it. I love taking photos and I love making women feel good about themselves. This past year has done so much for ME in that I’ve helped women see that they are beautiful no matter what THEY think they look like and I’ve made memories for many families  for years to come.

Thank you so much for sharing your lives with me and and thank you for letting me make memories for your loved ones.

The Good, the Bad and The Ugly

The Good, the Bad and The Ugly

Old time glamourIt’s a sad but true story (and anyone who knows me, knows this about me) I am a slow starter. I really don’t fire up in the traditional way. I start off, big guns blazing, then tire right the hell out an and sit down for a while. I then rethink every stupid thing I did to start with and go at my goal in another, more controlled way. It’s been my MO for years.

It works for me.

Usually.

This time I’ve had to face the sad truth that no matter how much I want to be the area’s premiere glamour/boudoir photographer, it’s coming to me slowly. TOO slowly and that’s making me crazy. It’s actually gotten to the point where I’ve dropped my prices to an embarrassingly low price and I still don’t get any appointments.

NBridal Boudoirot because I don’t take good photos, because I do. I KNOW I do – my studio is filled with beautiful photos. I’ve made many grooms happy on their wedding day when they’re presented with that little black book from their fiancee. I’ve made just as many women happy with their own little black books that they can look back at any time and SEE their true sexiness, the beauty they keep tucked away under their mask of mom, or professional person or wife.

I went into this last year with THIS thought in my mind: “EVERY woman needs, no DESERVES, a day to herself where everything is about her and where she has a lifelong memory of that day.” Usually only brides get that … the beautiful dress, the styled hair and pro make-up. All eyes are on her.

For that one day.

Why don’t we get another one of those days in our lives? We certainly deserve it.

Sassy SilhouetteMay is a crazy month for me this year, birthdays GALORE and my own angel daughter’s wedding where she will have the FIRST of days where she is the center of attention, because I’m going to make sure that she has many, many more.

And I’m going to make sure that every woman I know has a day like that. Even if you take the prettiest selfie in the world, and I have dozens of friend who do, it doesn’t compare to being pampered and catered to for an entire day and then having photos to look back on (that aren’t on a phone between our drunk dance on the bar and what we had for lunch).Bridal Boudoir

You are out there – you follow me and you like every photo that I post on SBG’s Facebook. I KNOW you want to come and be pampered for the day.

Before the summer is out I will make you see that you not only need to have it done, but that you deserve it and you’ll have the memory of the best thing you’ve ever done in your entire life.

For the rest of your life.